During the past two or three months, I've really started to appreciate Keith and Shana. I mean, all this time they've lived here, and I haven't seen them more than maybe 3 times a year. Since August, I've seen them at least once a month and once a week for the past 3 weeks. It's been fun, you know? Really really fun. And I'll be sorry when January rolls around. It'll make me sad to go to SSCC, and hear my voice of hope and knowledge, without the rhythm in the background. I'll be sorry to hear about Scott and Ed but not Keith. I know they'll be happier, and sometimes what makes one person happy doesn't do the same for another.
But I'll still go to SSCC and I'll still stand awkwardly at the center table and sing to the Lord and pray for my family and my friend and myself, even if she isn't there to greet us and the thump of the drums can't be heard in the background.
Life goes on and things change, but that doesn't always mean you can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Lauren
» Hey kids. I'm Lauren, I'm 16, and I hate enough things to make up for all the really happy people in the world.
»Loves: Sleep, food, my awesome cousins, macaroni and cheese, really anything with cheese, summer, King of Fun Island and the Rescue game, Washington D.C., being lazy AND complaining about it, meeting new people.
»Hates: Drizzle in June, giggly girls, people that talk to me like I'm 8, making decisions, exercise, learning things the hard way, people that complain about things like grades when they don't put in the effort in the first place, getting older.